This Is Who I AM?


This Is Who I AM?

I am 55.  This is who I am?

People say that age doesn’t matter and it’s just a number. And, I believe this to be true. Still, there is no denying the simple fact that I am 55.

I have gray hair, that you’ll likely never see;

I have too many freckles…and wrinkles, my gifts from years of worshiping the sun.

newborn baby

December 8, 1989

I have stretch marks across my once perfect belly, the cost of motherhood and the blessings of a beautiful baby boy

I am lumpy in places that just isn’t natural. I have back fat and cellulite. My skin is giving in to the Earth’s gravitational pull…saggy and droopy where once nice and taught

Yes, age is just a number, but one I can’t completely put aside

I have seen many things and have been many things to and for many different people…

… a daughter, a wife (twice), a girlfriend, an ex (too many to count) a friend, a lover, an enemy, an enabler, a caretaker, a sister, a target, a student, a teacher, a nurse, an animal lover, a victim, a hero, a joke, a grandma!…it goes on and on and won’t end, until I do.

There are 3 things that I have heard over and over my whole life, and I realize them to be true:

Honesty really is the best policy
Love is truly the answer to every problem
There are no accidents
Masturbation will not cause you to go blind 🙂

I believe in miracles, love at first sight and…I believe in destiny.

I have been on a the path toward a spiritual awakening for a while, now. This journey has brought me to come to peace with many things…my age, my past and… my future.

My mind has been opened, almost magically, somehow. I have laid to rest all the old ideologies of what is and what isn’t. I have, literally, been in a continuous state of evolving as new concepts are presented to me.

I can honestly say that this journey hasn’t been the easiest, thus far, but it’s still in progress…I’m still evolving each and every day. I am learning to relax more, and it’s making the process so much easier…more enjoyable.


May 2016

And, today, I can say, “I am 55. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am still a work in progress. And, I’m gonna be ok”.  This IS who I am.


Be Well



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